My Spiritual Journey
It’s an odd situation to most people. A staunch Christian married to an agnostic wife.
The Bible, Daily Bread and other religious books have a permanent position on our dining table. We raise our kids as Christians. Yet I continue to be agnostic and have a million questions about God and Christianity.
Here are examples –
Me: You know how everyone always say it’s all about a relationship with God, and not a relationship with a church?
Me: Who decides what kind of relationship I have with God? Me or God?
Hubby: You.. but only because God is patient.
Me: Can I believe in God but not be a Christian? Being a Christian is so complicated.
Hubby: No one ever said you have to be a Christian. A relationship with God is very simple.
Me: Can you pray for xxx for me? It’ll make me feel better if you prayed for it.
Hubby: Why don’t YOU pray too, darling?
Me: Hiyah! %^&#%@!!
Hubby: Alright.. I’ll pray for peace of mind for you.
My husband is the most patient man with me in what I would call, my spiritual journey. It’s a journey of discovery for me. Along with a load of skepticism, uncertainty and honestly, disgust for many so-called Christian practices out there.
Today I told him that our friend, Lydia had recently shared a piece from 2 Timothy 2:24-25 in Facebook. It was very inspiring and reflected exactly what the hubby has been doing for me.
The Lord’s servant must not quarrel. Instead, he must be kind to everyone, able to teach, not resentful. Those who oppose him he must gently instruct, in the hope that God will grant them repentance leading them to a knowledge of the truth.
And the explanation of the above verse at the bottom of the page said –
Paul’s advice to Timothy, and to all who teach God’s truth, is to be kind and gentle, patiently and courteously explaining the truth. Good teaching never promotes quarrels or foolish arguments. Whether you are teaching church school, leading a Bible study, or preaching in church, remember to listen to people’s questions and treat them respectfully, while avoiding foolish debates. If you do this, those who oppose you will be more willing to hear what you have to say and perhaps turn from their error.
I seriously dislike Christians who shove Christianity in my face using intimidation and scare tactics. Telling me that I am wrong, that I am ignorant, that the hubby and I cannot have a real relationship unless I am a Christian as well, and that I will go to Hell will NOT make me believe in God. Instead it will only make me question the kind of followers that God has allowed them to become.
I love 2 Timothy 2:24-25. They are my favourite verses now. I’m going to use these verses on the next Christian that comes and tries to bully me into becoming a Christian. Haha..
Other posts on my spiritual journey –
Finding A Relationship With God
The One Thing That Divides Us