My Spiritual Journey

It’s an odd situation to most people. A staunch Christian married to an agnostic wife.

The Bible, Daily Bread and other religious books have a permanent position on our dining table. We raise our kids as Christians. Yet I continue to be agnostic and have a million questions about God and Christianity.

Here are examples –

Me: You know how everyone always say it’s all about a relationship with God, and not a relationship with a church?

Hubby: Yup..

Me: Who decides what kind of relationship I have with God? Me or God?

Hubby: You.. but only because God is patient.

Me: Can I believe in God but not be a Christian? Being a Christian is so complicated.

Hubby: No one ever said you have to be a Christian. A relationship with God is very simple.

Me: Can you pray for xxx for me? It’ll make me feel better if you prayed for it.

Hubby: Why don’t YOU pray too, darling?

Me: Hiyah! %^&#%@!!

Hubby: Alright.. I’ll pray for peace of mind for you.

My husband is the most patient man with me in what I would call, my spiritual journey. It’s a journey of discovery for me. Along with a load of skepticism, uncertainty and honestly, disgust for many so-called Christian practices out there.

Today I told him that our friend, Lydia had recently shared a piece from 2 Timothy 2:24-25 in Facebook. It was very inspiring and reflected exactly what the hubby has been doing for me.

The Lord’s servant must not quarrel. Instead, he must be kind to everyone, able to teach, not resentful. Those who oppose him he must gently instruct, in the hope that God will grant them repentance leading them to a knowledge of the truth.

And the explanation of the above verse at the bottom of the page said –

Paul’s advice to Timothy, and to all who teach God’s truth, is to be kind and gentle, patiently and courteously explaining the truth. Good teaching never promotes quarrels or foolish arguments. Whether you are teaching church school, leading a Bible study, or preaching in church, remember to listen to people’s questions and treat them respectfully, while avoiding foolish debates. If you do this, those who oppose you will be more willing to hear what you have to say and perhaps turn from their error.

I seriously dislike Christians who shove Christianity in my face using intimidation and scare tactics. Telling me that I am wrong, that I am ignorant, that the hubby and I cannot have a real relationship unless I am a Christian as well, and that I will go to Hell will NOT make me believe in God. Instead it will only make me question the kind of followers that God has allowed them to become.

I love 2 Timothy 2:24-25. They are my favourite verses now. I’m going to use these verses on the next Christian that comes and tries to bully me into becoming a Christian. Haha..

Other posts on my spiritual journey –

Our Differences

Finding A Relationship With God

The One Thing That Divides Us



  1. Your hubby is a true man of God!! And what a wonderful bit of writing Karen, you know my views (I hope??). Very scary “Christian” people dictating you will go to hell etc – wow! Does the hubby go to church here in SA?

  2. Aaaaah Mrs, it’s like standing at the edge of a well in a desolate desert asking “Is that really water I see?”.

    Perhaps, rather than those that call themselves Christian, you are staring at one who really is what is meant by being a Christian.

    “Hubby” is a blessing in more ways than may yet be seen.

  3. All I can say is kudos to both of you keeping an open mind with each other…that is a true r/s of respect and understanding.

  4. Great blog! :)

    I firmly believe that having Faith does not mean that one has to “belong” to an organized church/temple. Relationship with God/Buddha/Allah is an intimate and personal one, no one ought to preach how others should “practice”. For some, like John Muir, the Yosemite is as sacred as a “church”…Karen Armstrong and Joseph Campbell are great…there’s no divide if we all just practice mindfulness…

    Looks like you are having fun on your journey…keep it up!

  5. Bing, I liked what you have shared!!! Excellent :) and totally agree with you on the statement of intimidating tatics

  6. And I think you read more of the Bible than some self proclaimed Christians do.

  7. i’ve believed in god but i cringe at calling myself a Christian. recently i went to church again and have been enjoying the process because the people there don’t ‘threaten’ me and have been nothing but kind and patient. one of the many things to thank god for :)

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